Friday, December 6, 2013

The Voyage

Imam Shafiie once said,

Leave your country in search of loftinessAnd travel! For in travel there are five benefits,Relief of adversity and earning of livelihoodAnd knowledge and etiquettes and noble companionship

Travelling. I bet loads of people love travelling. Why not, as by travelling we get chances to see new yet amazing places, met different people, embrace new culture and gain new experiences altogether. Travelling is not about " I was here" or having pages of immigration stamps on our passport but it is more than that. So, it is important to reset our intention before starting our journey, not just for shopping, showing off to people, or being envied by other people.

Yes, we can shop, we can updates the facebook status, upload photos but it is such a waste if we limit to these only. So dear friends, lets renew our intention and happy travelling. 

Wish you a happy yet fulfilling winter break. Say bismillah lets start our winter break.

p/s: InshaAllah, will start writing travellogue after this

Thursday, December 5, 2013


Quran lusuh. Pernah beberapa orang sahabat mencadangkan agar ia ditukar dengan yang baru; yang lebih fresh, cantik dan 'bright' buat pembakar semangat untuk mempelajari/membaca Quran. Pernah juga kedengaran suara-suara, eh, kesiannya. dah tercabut..

Teringat kisah 4 tahun yang lalu. sudah hampir 5 tahun barangkali.

M: Tahun ini ikah kena ngapa (baca: hafaz) Yaasin & Al Mulk. Boleh dop nak beli quran baru, yang kecik. Nanti sene nak  gi mano- mano [Sorry for the dialect]

A: Esok balik sekolah kite gi beli.

Ya Allah, rindunya..

Sunday, October 20, 2013


Blood test result is out. The next morning, I called my mom and told her my current health situation. She said she could sense my sadness even I kept denying it. Though at that time I just woke up so my voice was kinda different from usual. Hehe. Later at class, during 3 hours lectures, the thoughts about my mom's advice made me cry silently. A few hours later, (after having clinical practice tutorials, some chats with a close friend, baking and cooking session) I, kind of forgot about that. ( in a negative way I mean). But it's better than keep worrying for something unsure, right.

The message that I wanna deliver is that,

“He is only called man (insaan) because of his forgetfulness (nasiyaan), and it is only called the heart (al-qalb) because it changes so rapidly (yataqallib).”- Arabic poem

Sometimes, sense of doom is good for an extend that you'll strive at your best.

Friday, October 4, 2013


It has been raining for a few days already. Cork and rain are inseparable. Yay or Nah? Come to Cork, experience it and then you'll know :P Even though, it's not as much (read: heavy) as typical Malaysia's rain but it still make you uncomfortable especially when your house is 20 minutes away from university. So today, the rain was a lil bit heavier than usual. Because it has been raining all week, I decided to dance in the rain :P How cool is that! It reminds me of my childhood as I used to "mandi hujan" till my lips and extremities (hand and foot) turned blue. Hahaha. I took 2 hours to walk home from university. (and of course, I spent a couple of minutes at Tesco to buy ingredients for my tiramisu)

On my way back, I keep thinking about death. It's good to actually reminds myself that I'm gonna die someday thus motivates me to do good deeds. But somehow, I'm so frustrated knowing I still have 'it'. It has been months already. Sigh. Don't worry, I am not giving up. But, I'm tired. Learning Clinical Practice (it's a subject) about dyspnea makes me to be more paranoid.

Allahumma a' fini bi badani, Allahuma a' fini bi sam' i Allahumma a'fini bi basori.

Dear me, fighting. Bye.

Sunday, September 15, 2013

No Title

At this moment, I couldn't really describe my feeling. It is a mixture of excited, anticipated and I believe it is largely dominated by the feeling of fear and nervousness. InshaAllah I will start my second year in just two days time. I realized my mistake on my first year thus hoping I'll learn the lesson. May Allah ease the journey of my second year until final year. Ameen.

On the other note, the new batch (the juniors) had just arrived and we here are trying our best to welcome them. This reminds me on the first day I came here. Oh the seniors are so nice. and Yes, I'm trying to be like them too. InshaAllah

So I think thats all for now as I need to make a plan in preparing my days ahead here.


Tuesday, September 3, 2013

I'm so nervous.I suddenly feel cold. 

the end

Friday, August 30, 2013

Smile While Looking Back

Aran Island (Inis Mor)

رَبَّنَا مَا خَلَقْتَ هَٰذَا بَٰطِلًا سُبْحَٰنَكَ فَقِنَا عَذَابَ ٱلنَّارِ
"Our Lord, You did not create this aimlessly; exalted are You [above such a thing]; then protect us from the punishment of the Fire'' (Ali Imran:191)*

Alhamdulillah. It has been a year since I enroll medical school in UCC, Ireland. This time last year I was still indecisive on where and which university I wanted to pursue my study. Looking back, I only manage to carve a smile on things that I've been through on this journey. Surely, I am nothing without Him. Thank you Allah. I'm starting to see the blessings in disguise. :)

A year had passed and currently I'm at the junction of the road. I don't want to come back but want to go further. Biizinillah I'll pass it through..

*My friend shared this prayer when we went for jaulah last time :) So lets recite it especially when seeing His beautiful creation


Repost - Travelogue: Jabal Rumat, Medina

A repost from my facebook :)

Jabal Rumah; sebuah bukit kecil di hadapan Bukit Uhud. Disinilah tempat pemanah2 semasa perang Uhud ditempatkan dengan arahan Rasulullah saw supaya kekal di atas bukit. Tempat ni boleh tahan panasnya. Terfikir keseorangan, kalau berada ditempat pemanah2 tersebut, harta-harta di depan mata tentunya sangat menggoda jiwa lebih2 lagi di bawah terik matahari sebegitu. Allah.. Besarnya ujian mereka. Mutawif kami di Madinah sempat berpesan supaya selalu berdoa 

رَبَّنَا وَلَا تَحْمِلْ عَلَيْنَا إِصْرًا كَمَا حَمَلْتَهُ عَلَى الَّذِينَ مِنْ قَبْلِنَا 
Wahai Tuhan kami! janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami.(Al Baqarah:286)

Semoga kita semua tsabat untuk mencari redhaNya inshaAllah

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Read It All About It

 Read it all about- Emeli Sande

This is my current favourite song. I rarely listen to music, but the lyrics of this song just catch my attention.

You've got the words to change a nation
but you're biting your tongue
You've spent a life time stuck in silence
afraid you'll say something wrong
If no one ever hears it how we gonna learn your song
So come on ,come on
Come on, come on
You've got a heart as loud as lions
So why let your voice be tamed?
Baby we're a little different
there's no need to be ashamed
You've got the light to fight the shadows
so stop hiding it away
Come on, Come on

Meaningful, isn't?

Denial and Exam

Yesterday, my foster sister back in Indonesia contacted me. It has been a long time, really. I went there for humanity project on 2011 and we just updated each other once or twice only since our last meeting. I just knew she quit her school because of financial problems. I couldn't help from crying knowing that some people are struggling just to study.

So which of the favors of your Lord would you deny?

I admit that I sometimes complained that studying medicine is difficult, especially when you need to go through a thousand page lectures notes for just a module, classes from 9 to 5, etc. But what do I get from complaining? Nothing.So just look at the bright side. Anyway, there're only 2 weeks away before I sat for my final exam. The feeling is all mixed up. I'm scared for sure, but inshaAllah I will make it.

Stay focus and stay strong.


Thursday, April 4, 2013

A Cup of Tea

For tea-lovers, sipping tea is a blast. It calms one's mind and body. Same goes to Iman, it calms.

No one will know the sweetness of the tea except those who drink it. Same goes to Iman, Halawatul iman can only be felt for those who embraced  it.

Tea can be a venom for those who're having constipation but a healing for people with diarrhea. Same goes to iman, jahiliyyah, taghut, etc can be the venom.

Who ever thoughts that a mere green leave can produce this delicious yet invigorating drink. Same with Iman & Islam, we humans can be no one, but with them, we are somebody. Not because we're great but Islam is the greatest.

To enhance the taste of tea, we put sugar and milk into the tea. Same goes to Iman, it should be enhanced with knowledge and understanding, etc too.

p/s: It's just my own comparisons, which might be wrong. 

A few words

It has been a while, I didn't write anything here. Everything happens too fast, which I do not realize it. Oh time.. I wrote a few post actually but as usual, it ended up as drafts. Anyway, I'm going to sit for my final exam soon. Allahumma yusahhil. Pray for me dear readers :)

Relay For Life 23 February 2013

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Share The Love...

Share The Love...

by sharing a very owesome lectures, by my favourite scholar, Nouman Ali Khan.

The Magic Number: Of Being 20!

I'm finally 20. It's not something to be proud of. Not at all. Being a 20 makes me wondering on the past events and on what I've done over the last 20 years. At 19, Al-Fateh'd already taken over the thrown and by 21, he managed to conquest Constantinople. Still, alhamdulillah for the countless ni'mah that I received every single day; the oxygen, the food, the lovely people and much much more, which I could never count.

Oh yeah, this random thought hit me recently,
"Atikah, you're (almost) 20 and it means you're a lady now! So, act like one. Please be more matured."

With love,
7 December

p/s: at first, I decided to write more but it ended up with only 2 paragraph. I think I'm losing touch to write -.-"
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