Sunday, October 9, 2011

Dear students of the world

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Dear students of the world,

Have you ever imagined yourself in a situation where you failed your exam and you had no other choice except ended up living in 'typical' life. If you haven't, you should try to do it once at least.

In Malay culture, if you flunk schools, getting married is one of a way out for girls. While for men, they usually go and try seeking for jobs especially soldier in hoping to at least get a fixed salary. That is traditional Malay mentality. However, this is exceptional for those who were born with silver spoon in their mouth. They can easily sign up in any private college they want. Now, we can see how significant the money is, in today's education.

As for me, I couldn't ever imagine myself being in such circumstances. I always have alternative plan namely Plan A, Plan B and Plan C but I never include getting married as one of those alternatives. However, this thought hit me in these few days and made me wondering about it. What if I fail to get university offers? Do I have another choices or plans? Would I ended up working as a promoter in any shopping complex for the rest of my life?

It scared me to think about it.

Friday, October 7, 2011

To accept

After being hiatus for more than a month, the rambling is resumed

A nasyeed lyrics; it's one of my faves

Kau yang menciptakan cinta
Dan Kau jua yang menghampar bahagia
Di ribaanMu terhimpun harapan
Impian tulus setiap insan
Kau yang mengutuskan duka
Dan Engkaulah yang mengirimkan hampa
Namun padaMu jua diadukan
Merabahkan keresahan dan tangisan
Aku tahu inilah kasihMu
Aku tahu inilah cintaMu
Dan ku tahu tiap yang terbaik untukku
Tak semuanya yang ku mahu
Di celah hangat nafas yang terhela
Ada dingin saat menyeru (menyebut) namaMu
Terarah segala ronta dan rasa
Pada damainya dakapanMu
Aku tahu inilah kasihMu
Aku tahu inilah cintaMu
Dan ku tahu di segenap ruang rasaku
Telah Kau titipkan kekuantan
Oh Tuhan


Maybe it is just not meant for me.
It's too painful, it's heartbreaking
I pray that I will be given a strength to endure all these.
I cannot deny that I am still hoping for that, even the possibility is too low.
it is difficult to "redha" ( accept thing as it is) , isn't?

I just don't know how to face it.

p/s: why I am still hoping?

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