Future Plans

At this stage of life....

You're thinking what career you want to choose? Where you want to settle down? Do you want to go home after graduating or migrating to another country or maybe jusy  stay we you are at the moment. How would you contribute to ummah? How would you earn money? How to make a living?  When you want to get married? With whom? When to do your bucket list? And the questions goes on....



Of all uncertainties, having plans namely plan A, plan B and C would be the best choice for now. Sometimes we shouldn't be bothered much about the future, but just go with the flow. Not saying we shouldn't have plans and dreams but thinking too much about it leads you nowhere.
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So, work on with your best for now so that you can get your plan A ( biiznillah)


P/S I'm at study room in the hospital when suddenly I feel I want to write something. So here I am typing on the tiny keypad of Iphone. Haha.


With love,
Atikah

Bad Day?

Some days are just bad days; the moments I feel so stupid and not good enough. It is the worst feeling ever. Thinking back, I know I got no choice, but just keep going. I choose this path and I know I want to do it no matter how difficult it is. So I guess, just ignore others' perception toward you and prove them you are not that bad. You can do it!

Smile

People say life is not fair. I say we chose what we want in life. There are circumstances which are beyond our control. But there are still so many things that we can do and choose to shape our life the way we want it to be.

Take this simple analogy about human potential and limitation.

If I ask you to lift your right arm - you'll have no problem doing so

If I ask you to lift your left arm - you'll have no problem doing so. 

If I ask you to lift one of your legs - you'll have no problem doing so. 

If I ask you to lift your other leg - you will fall.Hence,

75% is within our control whilst the remaining 25% is for us to leave it to Allah to settle. That is tawakkal

- quoted.


I really love this.

Breath

These past few days, I've been receiving sad news regarding my friends. It is difficult for me to accept the fact that .., they are going back, for good. I might write a post about that soon, when I feel calmer. All I could say, living oversea is not a bed of roses, but it's not all thorns either. Studying medicine, all the workloads and all, add the burdens and beloved family are so far away. As year passes and going through year by year, things get more challenging.

Dear myself, keep holding on. Do your best, and you are going to be a great doctor. Keep going. 

Yours truly,

Atikah

11.37pm 31/8

What's UP

The thoughts of updating this blog came to my mind when I was answering exam paper this morning. Haha. I guess, plethora of random thoughts comes to our minds when we can't think of the answer. T.T It was 3 hours paper anyway.

So, since this is my second post of this year, surely I have lots to be blogged on, I mean, lots of events and stories I wanna share here. I've had a ? week for the past few weeks. I can't find a suitable word to put it there, but basically, it was an exam week. Since I enrol medical school, exam is a huge event for me.. and I suppose for the most of us too. During exam period, I start to have mixed feeling.. the feeling of homesick, the feeling of nak kawen.. the feeling of mengantuk all day..the feeling of nak makan pelik2.. you name it.. Sigh.

Alhamdulillah, I just finished my last paper this morning, but surprisingly the feeling of nak kawen is still there. OK, I need help! Hahaha (joke OK). Whenever we finished our exam, most of us would head to town to celebrate the end of exam with good food and some shopping. On the contrary, I cycled straight home after the exam; ate yesterday's dinner, cleaned up my room, arranged books and notes, took a long bath and now, I feel like.. I need work to do! Haha. Probably I need to do lots of self reflection and evaluation. Reflecting on this year curricular, there are lots of aspects that I need to improve; in term of clinical skills, communication, confidence and the utmost important, the basic knowledge.

Moving on,

A few news regarding overseas students goes viral recently. Firstly, the tweet of local student, which has caused a debatable issue.



Some overseas students tend to be reactive when seeing this and some just prefer to be silent. I prefer to reflect or muhasabah everything behind it. It has been 3 years since I started studying abroad and this kind of issue, is somehow good for me to reflect myself. I wont be commenting too much of this. But, one of the reasons is we, the overseas students (majority) posted photos we travelling here and there, photos the food we ate in social media, be it facebook, instagram or twitter. Everything seems perfect and bed of roses in the pictures. How about the reality then? Hurm. I suppose, we wont be 'saying' these and those to people if we are grateful with all the ni'mah we have.

Next is about the paedo, which is a big issue and involve our country's name. My friend in Notts wrote about this in his blog and I really suggest you guys to have a look. A good read guys! Hit click button guys --->  link.


I think thats all for now. I need to start planning my summer break now; My summer vacation, hospital attachment, ramadhan aims and bonding time with family. Till then.

Beneficial to others?

2015.

1. My first block for this year is GP block. General practitioners block. :)

2. I plan to spend this summer in Ireland. Talked to kakak about this, but she asked to come home so I can mengasuh my nephew Adam. Rindu dia sangat. You can't win everything. Sigh.

3. Fall in love with medicine when starting the clinical years. Everything seems to make sense now. The problem is I am too lazy. So, as for conclusion, it is not love if you don't prove you love it.

4. Dreamt arwah ayah last two day and it felt like I dont want to wake up that day because I wanted to see and be with him.

5. "Jangan jadi lelaki, tp jadilah diri sendiri, perempuan. " quoted from ustaz at the winter gathering last month. Being a perempuan, does not mean we need to be extra ayu, extra sopan or santun, but... when we are too independent, things happen you know. the thoughts that we can handle everything by our own. (Hope i am not delivering wrong message)

6. Possibility of my lil sister getting married before me is high. She's too young for a marriage , i'd say. But if it's her jodoh, then I couldnt say anything. I pray that everything will just go smoothly. May Allah guide her and our family ;(



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My blog posts are becoming 'nothing' and I hope this is not a public diary. I initially love to share my experiences and humble thoughts but I find it difficult to articulate them into words recently. I guess this blog will be on hiatus till I find a touch to write again. And, naaah, I won't delete this blog. It's something precious because there were lots of memories  behind each post.

Yours truly,
Atikah Hassan.