Dear students of the world

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Dear students of the world,

Have you ever imagined yourself in a situation where you failed your exam and you had no other choice except ended up living in 'typical' life. If you haven't, you should try to do it once at least.

In Malay culture, if you flunk schools, getting married is one of a way out for girls. While for men, they usually go and try seeking for jobs especially soldier in hoping to at least get a fixed salary. That is traditional Malay mentality. However, this is exceptional for those who were born with silver spoon in their mouth. They can easily sign up in any private college they want. Now, we can see how significant the money is, in today's education.

As for me, I couldn't ever imagine myself being in such circumstances. I always have alternative plan namely Plan A, Plan B and Plan C but I never include getting married as one of those alternatives. However, this thought hit me in these few days and made me wondering about it. What if I fail to get university offers? Do I have another choices or plans? Would I ended up working as a promoter in any shopping complex for the rest of my life?

It scared me to think about it.

To accept

After being hiatus for more than a month, the rambling is resumed

A nasyeed lyrics; it's one of my faves

Kau yang menciptakan cinta

Dan Kau jua yang menghampar bahagia

Di ribaanMu terhimpun harapan

Impian tulus setiap insan

Kau yang mengutuskan duka

Dan Engkaulah yang mengirimkan hampa

Namun padaMu jua diadukan

Merabahkan keresahan dan tangisan

Aku tahu inilah kasihMu

Aku tahu inilah cintaMu

Dan ku tahu tiap yang terbaik untukku

Tak semuanya yang ku mahu

Di celah hangat nafas yang terhela

Ada dingin saat menyeru (menyebut) namaMu

Terarah segala ronta dan rasa

Pada damainya dakapanMu

Aku tahu inilah kasihMu

Aku tahu inilah cintaMu

Dan ku tahu di segenap ruang rasaku

Telah Kau titipkan kekuantan

Oh Tuhan

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Maybe it is just not meant for me.

It's too painful, it's heartbreaking

I pray that I will be given a strength to endure all these.

I cannot deny that I am still hoping for that, even the possibility is too low.

it is difficult to "redha" ( accept thing as it is) , isn't?

I just don't know how to face it.

p/s: why I am still hoping?