topsy-turvy

Hye there. It has been quite a while after my last post. and today, I feel like writing sth..

This is IB Learner Profile. Our IB coordinator did ask us to remember this during the orientation. I ain't have any of these now (mayb a few) but InsyaAllah one day, I'll.

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This week, I feel like there's sth missing in my life.

And I feel guilty as well. A few seniors especially my naqibah invited me and seriously encouraged me to attend an Islamic programme outside KMB. Idk what type of programme is it, but I know that I really need 'it'. It's not Maahad anymore, so called biah solehah, where most of the teachers are ustaz and ustazah and I've lots of good friends. But my heart insisted by saying "No" as I've so many things to do; class musical dramma practise, spr thingy, buckets of homeworks and upcoming standardize tests. But...

I ended up with nothing.

1. I neither did the homeworks nor went to that programme.

2. It's too hard for me to wake up early in these few days. I did sleep early but still, I just woke up when hear the azan.

3. I read a few romance novels recently and seriously speaking, those stuff totally melaghakan

( Still, I must admit that Nickolas Sparks is cool. I like his novels)

4. I feel like I don't want to do anything. (tido?makan?) I'm crazy, am I?

Ya Allah, guide me to the right path. I really hope that I make full use of tomorrow, despite of the practise.

Reflection

Hi hi Hi. I'm back. The holidays seems to end very very soon. Actually, In this holidays I almost forget that I'm an IB student. Don't remind me of how I'm wasting my time by doing nothing but just sleeping and daydreaming. Huh, that's heaven. Is it? Nvm.

I've been in KMB since the end of June, which 's almost 3 month, but still I couldn't accept THAT. (What the heck?) Idk, The thing is, I can't even fathom it by myself. Almost e'day, I kept saying "I'm tired, I'm hella lonely" and sort of negative phrases. I've been in pressure since I first step foot in KMB. And this holidays are a bless to me. I enjoyed it very much. It's the time for me to sort my thoughts and alleviate my stress as well. 2 month of my life in kmb is just a waste, all because of my ignorance. Ignorance is not a bliss and it's suck. I'm not gonna ruin my future because of this ignorance. Speaking about college, I haven't made any productive actions regarding my buckets of assigments, workloads and studies. I'm a dead meat. Am I? Yes. I am. hoho.

P/S: I'm just arrived KL this morning. After taking shower, we (my cousin & I) went shopping and visited our relatives. Tomorrow I'm going back to Banting (crime scene of Datuk Susuilawati murder) Adios amigos.

ignore typing/spelling error. Exhausted =.=

It's just not the same anymore..

I just don't know why I love this so much. I keep playing this on my MP3 for thousand times. It seems like I'm in love and heartbroken. But of course that's no true. Tehee. Yiruma's very good. I mean, he's very very very good. I wish I could play piano someday. Ok, lets wish..

................I often close my eyesAnd I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And then I wake up from my dream
Although your heart is mine
It's hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never willAnd every night I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me like I loved you when 
You can't even look me straight in my eyesI've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there Yet feel so alone
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears,
The one to say that you would never leaveThe water calm and still 
My reflection is there and I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of youbis a memory 
On that only, exists in my dreams
I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it toobAnd it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know That no matter whatI'll always love youSo why am I still here in the rain

p/s: it's just not the same anymore. yes it is.

Bon Voyage

Howdy earthlings! I hope it’s still not to late to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. I also want to apologize to all of you for any wrongdoings I did. Maaf zahir batin.

Nur Adnin Abdullah & Nurul Hani Abdul Jalil

Bon voyage girls! Good luck to both doctor-to-be. Only God knows how much I love love love you.Tik doakan yang terbaik utk kamu. Sry 4 everything. and I'll be missing you.

Goodbye to you my trusted friends
We've known each other since we're 13 0r 14
Together we climbed hills and trees
Learned of love and abc s
Skinned our hearts and
Skinned our knees

And not to mention to others who’ll fly this wed and next week:

Fatimah Mohd Kamal

Fawwaz Aizat
Nazim
and the other friends..

p/s: bersedialah wahai diri!

Waiting

Tak sabarnya..

Ya, aku sangat2 tak sabar nak balik rumah setelah
2 bulan 8 hari berada di kmb..

Hari ni cikgu2 dah memberikan bekalan sempena cuti raya nanti. ><

"Cikgu, saya xmahu bekalan tu banyak2."