Beneficial to others?

2015.

1. My first block for this year is GP block. General practitioners block. :)

2. I plan to spend this summer in Ireland. Talked to kakak about this, but she asked to come home so I can mengasuh my nephew Adam. Rindu dia sangat. You can't win everything. Sigh.

3. Fall in love with medicine when starting the clinical years. Everything seems to make sense now. The problem is I am too lazy. So, as for conclusion, it is not love if you don't prove you love it.

4. Dreamt arwah ayah last two day and it felt like I dont want to wake up that day because I wanted to see and be with him.

5. "Jangan jadi lelaki, tp jadilah diri sendiri, perempuan. " quoted from ustaz at the winter gathering last month. Being a perempuan, does not mean we need to be extra ayu, extra sopan or santun, but... when we are too independent, things happen you know. the thoughts that we can handle everything by our own. (Hope i am not delivering wrong message)

6. Possibility of my lil sister getting married before me is high. She's too young for a marriage , i'd say. But if it's her jodoh, then I couldnt say anything. I pray that everything will just go smoothly. May Allah guide her and our family ;(



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My blog posts are becoming 'nothing' and I hope this is not a public diary. I initially love to share my experiences and humble thoughts but I find it difficult to articulate them into words recently. I guess this blog will be on hiatus till I find a touch to write again. And, naaah, I won't delete this blog. It's something precious because there were lots of memories  behind each post.

Yours truly,
Atikah Hassan.

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Lepas exam tadi, laju-laju kayuh basikal balik. Solat, call mama n now terbenam dalam duvet. Excuse my language. Terbenam? Terkurung? Arrgh. Semoga dikurniakan hati yang redha dan harapnya lebih menambahkan semangat untuk study lepas ni.

because we simply forgot

As I grew up, there are more and more 'things' that I realised I take it for granted. I wish it is still not to late for me to feel the al wadud of Him. We all know but we sometimes, simply forgot. Because we are all insaan, tend to forget things easily.


Close the eyes, make dua and cry, annnddd sujood.

This reminds me of my friend's sharings in our daily kuliyyah subuh:
We sometimes forget that those love we get from our family, friends, teachers, etc all from Him. He's the one who give thise love, make those people love us. Simply because, He's al wadud.

I just knew it, so congratulation

Bismillah.

O Allaah, I seek Your guidance by virtue of Your knowledge. You are the Knower of hidden things. O Allaah, if in Your knowledge, this matter is good for me both in this world and in the hereafter, then make it easy for me, and bless it for me. And if in Your knowledge it is bad for me and for my religion, my livelihood and my affairs, then turn me away from it.

Thats one of my prayer. But when He turns 'that' away, I become speechless. A little bit sad maybe. Forgive me O'Allah for being greedy.

Allah is al-'aliim, the knower. He knows what is best for his slave, for me.

Second Week

So today  I started my second week of Block 1. Things were a lil bit disorganized at first as my handphone suddenly broke down last night. My partner texted and called me a few times and I can tell he was very annoyed. Luckily, one of my housemates has an extra mobile phone. Problem settled, at least for a while.
There is nothing much today in the hospital as the teams (the consultant, registrar, SHO and intern) were not in the hospital. They were in other hospital. Well, thats the difference between Malaysia and here. Doctors here work in a few hospitals. (as far as I know) Anyway, my partner and I then decided to go to library and we go through some case example of rheumatology and later we presented to each other. Here you go, ankylosing spondylitis, rhematoid arthritis and psoriasis. I saw a few patients with those diseases last week in the clinic and tried to relate with the case studies. Later, we went for tutorial and take history of patient in A & E.

There is nothing much today but I feel relieved. Less stress. (selalu rasa bodoh kat hospital) Hahaha

After that, we headed to Brookfield for lecture. I am so fascinated with the lecture today on Patient Safety . A few quotes and take home message:

You need knowledge, you need skills, but You also need compassion

Acknowledge error and allow learning to occur

To err is human, to cover up is unforgivable but to fail to learn is inexcusable. 

Ok thats all for now.