IB Exam. Break a Leg

InsyaAllah I will be sitting for International Baccalaureate (IB) exam from 3th till 18th May 2012. Pray for my success people :))

ATIKAH HASSAN 45 POINTS.
Am I aiming too high? No, because Allah don't expect me to be mediocre. Kalau nak aim syurga pun, kena aim firdaus kan?

The Nameless Feeling

One:

I always find it difficult to make decision, knowing that I have to choose between dreams and self capability. All these while, I prefer dreams in the hope I’ll be a better Atikah.

And today, I doubt about it.

Two:

contains small pieces of papers about me.
(written by my classmate during the last class of Malay A1)

Picture- I cherished the hope that one day (probably  5 years later) I will open this box (should it be a bottle?)  while smiling and reminiscing  my good & bad time in KMB.

Three:

Yesterday was the last formal class we had in KMB, which indicates how close the IB Exam is.

Four:

I’m starting new.

Five:

Life is not about constantly worrying about something, it's about living. I seriously don't want to live with a constant fear over things that I shouldn't be fear of in the first place.

Six:

I’ve been meaning to update this blog but in certain things, I prefer to keep it as a recondite matters. My post this time is somehow ‘retarded’ because each paragraph doesn’t really relate to the one after it. Chronologically and historically unrelated at all. I just type what pops on my mind. A plethora of thoughts have been knocking, scratch that, bashing my mind to one point where I can't think properly.

Seven:

There’s still one more precious month in KMB. 

P/S: The will be the last. Not until June.

She scared me

Afraid to your own teacher.

What would you do if you're in this situation? Ermm..

Ermm..

Howdy dear earthlings! I hope everyone have a blast! After some time not writing here, I'm just thinking to express and rumble my fleeting thoughts.

This week has been a real messy for me.

1. I have fever. I spent (read: rested) most of my time with sleeping =.= I skipped class on Monday and on Friday, I returned hostel after taking Math quiz & Chem test. It's just like everything's shut down.

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2. Last two weeks, IUMC (for ireland-bound students) result was out. Most of my friends got the conditional offers. Last sunday, Cardiff Uni started making offers. As far as I knew, 4 kmb-ians got the offers and they(Cardiff Uni) said the process will not complete until early March. And yesterday, Leicester Uni was giving out their offers.

3. 2 more months to go before IB Exam and I don't have mood to start studying.

Last but not least, the fever and a bit emotionally distress makes me sick even more. At the same time, I cried to the fact that I'm worrying about the dunya, which I'm not supposed to. Forgive me O'Allah.

Marriage

Kahwin? Marriage? Matrimony? Nuptial?

I feel like people around me keep talking about that. This includes in Facebook. But don't worry, I'm not gonna talk about this.  I am not even 20 and I don't think I should. Not now. Future? Emmm, who knows? :D Talking about this, I would say it's human nature to love and to be loved. I am not an exception too. I always remind myself not to involve in this. "Atikah, kata nak cari cinta Allah. so jangan la crush kat orang lain ya" Teehee.  I know it sounds funny. So, please, don't giggle!

On a different note,  I went for an outing to MidValley yesterday, just to spend the BB1M - 1 Malaysia Book Voucher. Bought 3 books for RM100. I used to read lots of romance books (Both English and Malay version) but due to some personal reasons, I promised myself not to buy those books anymore. Worse, since I'm bounded to the promise, I ended up borrowing romance novels from my friends. =.- Believe it or not, I've read not one, but three novels in this weekend. So now, I promised  not to buy or read any kind of this book. Changing the book genre that we used to read is hard, but I know it's worth every effort. InshaAllah. Seerah is one of my wishlist :)

I might not able to read those books now, but InshaAllah, I will find appropriate time to enjoy these :) 

Non of those books are academics books. Well, IB books are not easily available in bookstores. Furthermore, I do think my reference books are just enough.