Is it the right choice?

So today, the first Arabic class has started. I'm quite happy to learn this language even before this to be frankly, I'm not really into this language. Perhaps after so long not hearing people talking using Arabic, I feel so excited :)

Moving on..

"Symposium!" "Symposium!"

I would conclude that's the word of the week. Symposium's actually a program for future nuqoba'- the one who'll conduct the usrah. The thing is I'm not signing up for nuqoba' programme. There were loads of my friends were shocked when I was saying that I'm not signing up for naqibah to be. To be honest, it was like, really hard for me to make this decision. I knew this is the best path so far where I could contribute sth, at least to my religion. I even could make more friends. Nonetheless, I just felt that my real intention wasn't that. It's not that I don't want. It's really a good feeling when attending usrah. and of course I want others to feel what I'm feeling.

I'm always scared with this verse,

O ye who believe! Why say ye that which ye do not?Grievously odious is it in the sight of Allah that ye say that which ye do not. (As-saff:3,4)

Well, anyway, the college will faced the electric disturbance tomorrow. Most of my friends went home, obviously and the others went to the symposium. I don't know what I am going to do. None of my remaining friends want to go for an outing. and I guess, I am all alone again.

but hey, I'm not alone. InsyaAllah, Allah always stays beside me :)

and this sunday, I'll go to KLCC for MPO (Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra) It is actually a part of mentor-mentee programme. I'd never watched any musical and even, had never been to MPO before. Hopefully, it'll be fun.

To reflect on yesterday, before taking breakfast my friend and I went for jogging. This's the first time I jogged after the holiday. Upon arriving the end of the track, I suffered dizzy spells. Surprisingly I couldn't barely walk. Thanks my dear friend for helping and bring me back to my room! Perhaps this's due to my sedentary lifestyle =.=

I've just googled about caffeine. This is because, for the past few days I've been drinking coffee in order to finish warisan assignment. It was like Oh My GOD, torturing. I was so pissed off at first as I didn't have enough time to study. But then, I realized sth- Intention is the most crucial part when we do sth. Actually, I had to create a blog regarding CAS - clubs, sports, humanitarian projects, external CAS, yadda yadda. In order to stay awake in class, I drank coffee, excessively. It was effective at first but I found myself more tired than usual.

(for your information, I rarely drink coffee)

and here's some info from google:

Why does caffeine makes you tired?

Caffeine makes your body free more energy than normal (leading to euphoria). If you use that extra energy, your energy levels (glucose levels in your blood) will quickly drop, leading to headache and other side-effects (crash).

-wiki answer-

First, caffeine is a vasoconstictor (it shrinks your blood vessels) thereby, it increases your heart rate and blood pressure. This is why caffeine is so effective for treating headaches.

Second, caffeine is also a diuretic (it makes you pee).Therefore, if you are already dehydrated, then the caffeine will not have enough blood volume to shrink down the vessels to increase your blood pressure, and the caffeine will increase your dehydration to make you more tired.

Tip: this is what I do. Drink at least 3 to 4- 8 ounce glasses of water before drinkingone cup of coffee. You will run to the bathroom in 20 minutes, but you see that you will have more pep and energy and use the 3 to 4 rule with every cup. You will find that you need less coffee to give you more energy

-yahoo answer-

UPDATE: I ended up joining the symposium :)

A start

Say HI!

New semester has started for a week already. I've already got the result for Semester 1 exam. Since 130++ students scored 36 and above, I would say that my result was just so-so. Err, I take that back, It was bad actually.

Let's aim higher for this sem shall we? God Willing.

This semester, there will be

more assignments

more presentations

more activities

more responsibilities..

and of course

the level is higher..

but no matter what,

I have to score well

it's for PLACEMENT..

Anyway, I still don't have any idea about EE and World Lite topics. =.=

bestow upon me divine inspirations, Ya Allah!

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I sign up for Arabic tutor programme. At first, I doubted whether is that a really good idea for me. I afraid that I cannot manage my time well. (Blame IB for this, teehee) But then, it's a waste of learning Arabic for almost 5 years, and at the end, I forget everything. Hopefully, I 'll be a good tutor and could help others to learn this lughatil Quran. (Language of Quran) -even I know my Arabic isn't very good.-

This evening, this one guy asked us (tutors-to-be) to answer a few Qs to test our language proficiency. At first, I was like, "what the..?" Later, I found that it was quite beneficial for us. It 's actually just a basic Arabic. Still, I couldn't answer it well. I need to study more on Mudhof-mudhofun ilaih. =.=

or maybe, I just should join the class.

#The books are in dire need to be read. But, I gotta finish Warisan assignment first. -I couldnt understand why I have to learn this?-

Till then :)

Farewell 2010 Welcome 2011

Time really flies..

Now, we're in the end of 2010.I guess, it's the time for us to review and reflect our life in 2010. No words to be expressed on this.

|Karisma English Explorer '10|

-kex camp, innorace, cert. ceremony-

"But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track"

"So if we get the big jobs,

And we make the big money

When we look back now,

Will our jokes still be funny?"

Enough with that..

Since 2011 is only hours away, have you done listing your new year resolution? Not yet? So, it 's the right time for you to sit down, with a cup of coffee perhaps, a pen and a piece of paper. or you can simply do it digitally as an alternative. Now, reflect on what kinds of new year resolutions will you make for yourself this January 1st..

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Here're some tips I've copied from ehow.

Be realistic by setting achievable goals. Winning the lottery, for example, is out of your grasp.

Describe your resolutions in specific terms. Instead of "I don't want to be lazy," opt for "I want to exercise regularly" or "I will cut down on my television watching."

Break down large goals into smaller ones. For instance, commit to losing weight by resolving to join a gym and improve your eating habits.

Find alternatives to a behavior that you want to change, and make this part of your resolution plan. So you want to quit smoking but you smoked to relax yourself? What other forms of relaxation are available to you?

Above all, aim for things that are truly important to you, not what you think you ought to do or what others expect of you.

Hopefully, it would be helpful :)

I think this is the last post before I'm going back to college. See you soon.

Of Life And Thoughts

by saxonfenken

The secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times.

Back in primary school, I always dream to study in this one school but then, I failed to secure a place there. Instead I went to a school that I never expected to study in. But in no time, I love this school surprisingly and until now, I'm very grateful to have a chance to study there. When I sat for PMR, I was aiming for not merely straights As only but something better. Again, I failed to get what I really want. Another disappointment hit me but life must be go on. And yes, it did. And then, there SPM came. I was so determined to get something that I really want for ages, which’s not just getting strings of As. I really want to pursue my study at this one college but all I got was another downturn.

"Hey, you're expecting too much!"

Yes, I am. I do think that it's not an erroneous for expecting something better in life but of course, it must come along with efforts. Like others, I always want more and more, not enough with things and achievements I have right now, which undeniably normal for homosapien. I'm not saying that I'm not grateful of what I'm having right now, but I just can’t resist that feeling. It’s actually good for some reasons as it keep us struggling more but on the other side, being greedy is such a horrible attitude.

All the disappointments sometimes make me think of giving up. I’m just so sick of keep failing and failing. It is surely an unbearable feeling when things didn't go as we planned, especially when we have tried hard enough. But as a Muslim especially, I always believe this,

ALLAH Answers Prayers In Three Ways:

He Says Yes And Gives You What You Want.

He Says No And Gives You Better.

He Says Wait And Gives You The Best In His Own Time.

Still, there are times when it's hard not to feel despondent and crest fallen. At that time, it is utterly difficult for me to really accept this piece of words. Moreover, I personally the one who sometimes could get sad with no obvious reasons, easily hurt and very sensitive. I could be annoying to some people. Last week, I have answered a personality quiz and as I expected, the result is not extremely good. I didn’t get the full report of the result as I need to pay for it. However, the-not-extremely-good is just enough to tell me everything. It has always been an issue for me on why it is so hard to control my moods and emotions. I always want to be emotionally intelligent person, who is able to understand and deal with his/her emotions easily, and not to mention always be positive in life.

As for me, when I failed to get something, the one I blamed is none except myself. Because I know I have not tried hard enough. It is as if I aimed for the stars but I didn’t pull my socks up. I often get discouraged and live in my very own comfort zone and just realize it on the very last minute. This is what we called the typical Malay. I always try to change as I don’t want to be labeled as that kind of typical Malay. Occasionally, it makes me wonder of what keeps me motivated. Is it respect, praise and admiration from other people or some soothing words from my love ones? ASK yourself dear Atikah.

Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

Like anyone else, I do envy people. At times, this some sort of question pleads my mind for an answer “Why she/he has these and those, but I don't?” Every time this feeling crosses my thought, I immediately remind myself that each person is special on their own ways. But still, it's not easy for me to really accept this line. Because all I could see is my bad side. =.= But then, the only remedy is Him. Life is surely grey, dull and pointless without Him. At that point, I know I have no reasons to complain. I really should have focused on what I have, instead of stressing out on what I don’t have.

kmb-ians-taken before the holidays

In life, there’s good time and bad time. Life's not all gloom and despondency; all those things actually make our life even more meaningful. It is ok to feel good about ourselves sometimes. I think this is the right time for me to start flattering on myself -surely for good reasons. I should realize that I am actually luckier than some other people. (though some other people are luckier than me.) I still have family and friends who are always there for me and support me behind. In short, all I have to do is to have faith in myself and keep striving more.

Have you ever heard that life is a choice? We choose which choices we wanna take. I choose to go through some sort of difficulties, in a doubt of choosing the wrong ones. I always worried that I’ve not made a wise decision but it’s my choice after all. Is it risk- taking, isn’t? Right now, I haven’t any choice except keep walking in this path, not knowing what confront me later. All I know is that there’s no way of turning back. But why I am still struggling in this life? Well, it's simply because I want my life to mean more. I want to be a better person; a better Muslim. I want to be able to wake up one day and not regretting any steps that I didn't take knowing that I could've made life differently. With all these, in a hope one day that every sugar tastes sweeter and every hardships seems bearable. I want to be somebody who could finishes what she had started even if all the fibres in her body hates it. Because experiences is the best teacher that helps to build one’s characters.

Every night, before I went to bed, I'll imagine myself living in the 'life' I wanna be. You have no idea on how I really want this. It is indeed a great pleasure and somehow motivates me to do well in life, despite of gruelling days I had and have to face. However, my mind always occupies with worry of not getting what I want. I am so scared if I happen to face it. “Man Proposes, God Disposes.”

To quote an article I just read,

Dream more while you are awake.

Lastly, I’ve attracted by a phrase from a blog that I read just now,

Don't you think life is too short to not work hard?

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PS:My posts has always been emotional. TOLD ya, I'm an emotional person. ( Argh, I hate to admit it) Seems my life is quite transparent now, isn’t? I once had promised myself I didn’t want to blog crappy posts anymore but nah..... @.@

Becoming old

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Have you ever imagine yourself becoming old and having white or grey hairs, wrinkled skin, slightly bent body and other normal biological process, called aging? Actually, I've just finished reading "Meniti Senja" a translated novel, written by Sawako Ariyoshi (a Japanese). It's a great book indeed. This book somehow makes me ponder of becoming old. That's why today I feel like writing about this topic.

I'm not intentionally focusing on physical appearance (some of you might thought that due to my first sentence) Most people hate or dislike the fact that she/he will be living their lives as an old man or as an old woman. Some people might claim that getting old is suck as it has been stereotyped of becoming ugly, slow and weak. While

some others, who take the positive side may be enjoying the longevity. But, how far they can enjoy it? there's probably a condition, which is having a good health.

old lady who stole kids football

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People don't want themselves to become old for which they do numerous initiatives; they dye their hair in order to hide the whites, they use a number of drugs to avoid aging, they even take a risk to do surgery but none of these measures are long lasting. Aging is definitely an irreversible process.

Most senior citizens suffer Alzheimer. I've heard that some of them can't even remember their own children, and worst of all, there're also who did eat their own bowels. It can be said that they are actually back to their childhood times. Can you imagine yourself being in that kind of situation? Being an old lady/man and unable to wash your own butt, for example. They also tend to be very sensitive and fragile. They easily hurt even for simple things.

So, as young people, what should we do? "Respect and care for them." U may get it right or maybe 1 mark for your answer, but are you sure you're gonna do it willingly? Just a point to ponder.

He talked to you yesterday and today, he's gone. for forever..RIP

Till then..