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eighteen!

Alhamdulillah, I'm finally 18.

Another year has come and gone
The sands of time keep trickling away.

Instead of counting candles

and tallying the years,

this birthday reminisces

some special people in my live;

who love me and take care of me

and also enriched my life,

and always be there for me in time I need.

thinking of past, passing years cant never mar

all the memories we shared together..

I love all of you

Birthday's also a time for reflection

about life and future direction

I've been here today because of the past

and yet the unforeseeable future depends on what I'm today

hopefully, I'll be a better person

for each single second and minute.

since today's 1 Muharram,

I wish all of you

(God willing) another great year,

SALAM MAAL HIJRAH

May Allah bless all of us. amin

this is just a piece of heartfelt words of mine

I obviously no good in writing or saying something,

and I guess, that's it.

*****

Im so thankful to be able to breath in every single second and

to live in this world. Alhamdulillah for all your outpouring love.

O Allah, please don't leave me alone bcause I'm afraid for not having you with me.

P/s: New year with new wishlist. Moga diperkenankan olehNYA

Break

SEMESTER EXAM HAS ENDED!!

(notice the capital)

Alhamdulillah.

I surely will remember all the bittersweet memories (bitter>sweet. Tehee) during this sem. Hopefully, I 'll not waste my time (no excessive sleep anymore, insyaAllah)

Btw, I've planned many things to do; hospital attachment, novels, movies and lotsa.

Last but not least,

Salam Maal Hijrah, guys!

May Allah bless all of us. ameen.

p/s: Math paper was quite hard. It was totally distressing. Oh, result. ><

Kelantan, here I come~

Another

Currently, I am at my cousin's house (in KL). Yesterday, I got the result for Chemistry standardize test (Atomic Structure). Most of my classmate got 7 and 6. But me? >< It's really disappointing me. Still, what can I do? Struggle more? That's obviously the answer.

Final is getting nearer.

Passive

Hi fellas! It has been quite long time I did not write here. and I've kept my blog privately for a while, due to some personal reasons. And now, I'm writing again. Ah, I miss you my dear bloggie.

Just now, I've my mentor- mentee session. At first, one of my classmate gave us a tazkirah. Then, my mentor told us something that I realized the reasons of problems i faced here, in Kolej Mara Banting. I mean, anything regarding studies.

One of the big thing is; (notice the bold part)

Unresponsiveness in class.

In KMB, I become a passive student. It is quite contrary with the old me. as if I did not participate in the learning process at all. I just listen, nod and thats it. Sincerely, I'm shy to ask Qs as my english is just so-s0. To add the diffulty, some of the teachers did not allowed us to speak Malay in her classes. (I'm not talking about English B HL class) I even did not given any response during tok class. I know that most of the teachers were a a bit offended by my attitude. I feel so guilty. As we all know, parents and teachers' blessing are utmost important in students' life but I've hurt the teachers' feelings. ><

Thats maybe one of the reasons i did not score well in quiz and standardize tests. but still, I know that my effort is just not enough.

P/s: Teachers, Im soo sorry of all my wrongdoings. (I'll try my best)

p/s: why I'm always sleepy?

topsy-turvy

Hye there. It has been quite a while after my last post. and today, I feel like writing sth..

This is IB Learner Profile. Our IB coordinator did ask us to remember this during the orientation. I ain't have any of these now (mayb a few) but InsyaAllah one day, I'll.

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This week, I feel like there's sth missing in my life.

And I feel guilty as well. A few seniors especially my naqibah invited me and seriously encouraged me to attend an Islamic programme outside KMB. Idk what type of programme is it, but I know that I really need 'it'. It's not Maahad anymore, so called biah solehah, where most of the teachers are ustaz and ustazah and I've lots of good friends. But my heart insisted by saying "No" as I've so many things to do; class musical dramma practise, spr thingy, buckets of homeworks and upcoming standardize tests. But...

I ended up with nothing.

1. I neither did the homeworks nor went to that programme.

2. It's too hard for me to wake up early in these few days. I did sleep early but still, I just woke up when hear the azan.

3. I read a few romance novels recently and seriously speaking, those stuff totally melaghakan

( Still, I must admit that Nickolas Sparks is cool. I like his novels)

4. I feel like I don't want to do anything. (tido?makan?) I'm crazy, am I?

Ya Allah, guide me to the right path. I really hope that I make full use of tomorrow, despite of the practise.